I want to die i want to die i want to die i want to die i want to die i really really want to fuckig die
do you ever just want to shout like… it’s because i’m sad! like yes i didn’t do my homework, yes i didn’t text you back, yes i’ve been hiding in my room! i’m sorry! but i haven’t killed myself so honestly where is my badge!
I just want to die. Life’s been a rocky road and I’ve honestly had enough. I can’t face this anymore. I can’t bear the loneliness, the lethargy, the tears and numbness anymore.
Please just fucking kill me.
it really pisses me off how easy it is to get sad and then how long and hard it is to get happy again like what the fuck man thats not fair
my kink is being stabbed until i die
God dammit I hate how this has become a place where I just post about how depressed I am but I’m just always so fucking low; I feel like I’ve lost my passions and even the basics of social activity, I stay in my room and try toget work done but I either fuck up drawing or just cant draw. I sit in front of a computer screen for hours watching my Facebook feed occasionally update, starved for someone to talk to me, but I cant talk to them cos guess what fam I constantly think of myself as a piece of shit creep who people will only get sick of sooner or later. Im lonely, platonically and romantically, because I just shitpost, literally talk shit at all times. I never wanted that impression, i feel like I come across as an angry manchild. And the worst thing is, I lie about my wellbeing to my mum cos I dont want to worry her when Im at uni, but I know she knows Im lying. Because even she cant help. And she’s tried.
I’ve woken up and gone to sleep in varying levels of crying for the past 2 days. I’m behind on work to the point where I’m gonna fail. I’m a useless piece of shit. I just want to stop being. Not alive, not dead, just nothing. Because all I am now is sadness apathy and a great big dose of numb.
I decided my 2016 gone start Feb 1… this was a free trial month
contradicting squads
signs as game grumps memes
Death at this point would seem like such a cop out but I honestly feel so lost. I don’t know who I am, who I want to be around, what I want to do. If I had a car I know I would just drive away from all of my problems and just start my life again. So much of my past seems to haunt me and whilst its defined who I am, something I don’t think I would want to change.. it is consistently there holding me back. I have lost trust in other people. I just want to be alone and to fade away slowly..
